Fitness, Nutrition and Health Failure

Aug 4, 2018
2 min read

How many times have I told myself, promised myself and my husband that I would change my habits. Less sugar. No sugar. I'm being good with what I choose to eat. I've gotten better...

LIES. I've lied to myself and to my husband is what I've done. Yes there have been minor improvements, but only if you count taking 1 step forward and 2 back an improvement. And now I'm mad.

I'm mad at myself, uterly disappointed because it's not just about me anymore. My 1 year old son who I am still breastfeeding depends on me. What goes into my body goes into his. I told myself I would be better because it was for him. To give him the best start in life that I could.

And still I've failed again.

Milk bleb number 2! Directly connected to the increase in unhealthy foods (powdered milk and sugar, breads, cookies) that I've been ingesting these past couple of days. I actually hid from my son as I ate these so he wouldn't ask me for any, and I hid from my husband so I wouldn't get questioned for my actions. Why have I done it? Because I told myself I'm on vacation and when I get back home I'll tighten up again.

LIES!!!

All lies. The truth is even as I write this and as I eat the pictured salad in this post, I'm actively thinking I'll just eat something else sweet tonight since I've already ruined today anyway.

I obviously have a problem. I've admitted it before and that has still NOT been enough.

I must change my moment by moment habits of health, nutrition, fitness... Literally one moment at a time. One day is too long, too much could go wrong.

Creator help!