Missing the Point while in the Crazy Cycle
- Dec 7, 2018
- 3 min read
What is the purpose of being a mother?
What is the job of a mother?
What does God expect from me as a mother?
Since your child was born how much time have you had to think about these questions and implement the things the Holy Spirit leads you to?
He has only been alive for about 17 months and already I have been caught in the crazy cycle. The one with my self imposed routine of waking, interacting and playing while trying to gently lead to the next part of the day, feeding, cleaning up, bathing, outside time, cooking just enough, feeding again, cleaning just enough, playing and interacting again because quality time is important, trying to get some reading and or studying done, and just surviving until dada gets home so that maybe you get a breather... and when another feeding and cleaning up is done and he finally goes to sleep depending on the time then I can study, or wash the pile of dishes, or watch a movie or have some intimate time.
The Crazy Cycle. You get my point, I hope.
This self imposed routine or any semblance there of (since toddlers change things up so often) is the only thing that keeps me sane and feeling like I am accomplishing anything at all. But when that is all I do, I have missed THE POINT.
The point?
Yes. The fact that God allows us to have children for a reason and that as their parents we have specific responsibilities that go beyond meeting the daily physical needs that, though important, are not all that IS important.
But I admit, I didn't really understand the extent of what God expects from me when I tried to picture myself a mom. First and foremost as I am re-learning, especially in this regard, I cannot teach what I do not do myself (simply because words with no actions hold little power).
I must teach him how to have a relationship with God.
Do I have a relationship with God? And where does that relationship stand?
It is a lot to ponder and a lot to learn and a lot to implement. The responsibility of having a child is that you don't just nurture their bodies and their emotions but also their spirit. I must teach my son by showing him what love is. What discipline is. What obedience is. What good communication is. What humility is. What boldness is. And again, what obedience and love are, because so much of our relationship with God hangs on those two things.
This responsibility is a daily one, a moment by moment one. It comes out in my responses, in my reactions in the moment, in my response afterward if and when I mess up.
Yes. It is a lot.
But it's part of our journey as human beings and it is part of our children's journey as well. Because there does come a point in our lives where we must make disciples. There comes a point where to learn we must teach. And that means there is a lot we will be accountable for.
Whether we teach intentionally or without intention, we must not make the mistake of thinking we are not teaching something... we are ALWAYS teaching something. What am I teaching my son? Does God approve? What will the Creator say to me on the day of Judgement in this regard?
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